
This might be a post to express my feelings.
The love story of them had end up with.. no reason?
She suggested to let both of them few days to calm down. Things happened in a sudden. He changed a lot within one week.
"How are we going to settle our stuffs..?" She talked nicely
"Don't know" He replied.
"Did you feel that yourself had change a lot within this week?" Her warm tears is started to rolling down on her cheeks.
"No, i didn't." He is still with the don't care attitude.
"Well, is the time to make everything clear." She is trying to be tough
"Break up." He said!
"What?! What you said?!" She is screaming and crying in her room.
Yeahhh, the story end up like this! With no reason. Well, he brighten up her life when the moment they are being together. But he had destroyed the girl's life in just a minute. What she can't accept is both of them are still being very sweet before the day. He hug the girl tightly and said "i'll never leave you". He kissed the girl's forehead before the girl leave.
Everyone around me told me a lot of his bad stuffs after we broken up. What for? I'm so sorry to say that, I'll just believe in what he say! Please, don't ever try to ruin our relationship. I wonder why, he doesn't want to call or msg me by himself. He will only try to know things about me through my mui. Seriously, i don't understand at all! This is to show what? Revenge? or Protect?
After one month, he called me and explained everything to me. The reason is, he feel that he doesn't suit me. What the nonsense reason he gave to me! I'm totally can't accept what he told me on that night! It is just so artificial. But,what can i do? Honestly, until today, i still can't accept the fact! I'm still miss every moment, every second we stick together. I did admit, sometimes we might quarrel because of small matters. But we're getting closer after that!
I still can't used to the days without him. Although i do tell myself for hundred times "Is the time for you to move on. Don't try to look backwards anymore!". I'm failed to do so. Although i know everything had change, but still i am waiting right here. Whenever i heard something bad are going to happen on him, I will try my best to settle everything for him. This is the only thing i can do for him right now. I never thought of getting back any return! But sometimes, human may feel tired also.
Yesterday night, some of his friends told me "Please ask him to becareful! we're going to let him die very soon." Once i heard this, i can felt the pain deep inside my heart. I couldn't sleep well the whole night and the tears is flowing down non-stop. I'm trying to beg them do not do so on him. Beg and Beg, Please and Please. This is what i never did before in my life. What i can do is give him a message and tell him something gonna happen on him, please be aware from THEM! And he will always give me the so called "don't care" attitude in front of me. Please, it makes me feel hurt! Did you ever know? Deep down inside,
I'M JUST A GIRL. A girl that need love, care, protect and everything from you.
Maybe some of you may think that. Why we had broken up d, but still i care much for what? No matter how, he is my ex, he was be a part of my life. I can't stand for others keep on destroy his reputation! Cause, he is always the perfect one in my heart. I know, you guys may think that i am stupid right? This is me. I'm just being myself!
I'm still being so naive and stupid, is waiting for him to come back to me. Perhaps, he do gave me what i need the most in my life. The memories is always beautiful and perfect! I do not know the reason of why am i will love him into very deep. I never think that is it worth for me to do so? For me, Love isn't means worth or not. It is because of the feeling of love & care!
Hubby, Thanks for everything you did. I do appreciate it much! What i can do is just that much. Try to forgive and forget, alright? Don't ever say that you feel sorry towards me. I never felt regret to be with you. I'll try my best to move on. Time will proves everything, remember that! I thought our days will lasts long, but it wasn't our destiny. The only thing i can tell you is "Nothing will lasts forever, so i will not say that i will love you forever. But for now, i know i love you."
Without loves,
Qping.